unsent letter #4
following the rules of 'it's over'
lost between the sheets of
all the ways you couldn't love me
anymore
the dollar bills and mountains from molehills
the distant friends come back again
the nights around a campfire
the stars we shared a few of
its been another week of me
trying to let go
as life parades around me glory
hanging from my neck
new friends i'm making
and i cleaned my room
get up early to exercise
throw a blanket over the telephone
now that i'm dead to you
am i really dead to you?
someone said i never lived
in your upside down hemisphere
to you
i'm just an apparition of swirling words
and eyes too deep to be real
so what do you have now
a sea full of beautiful fish
and a broken bird in your
oversize hands?
listen at night
when the wind stops
when the rain stops
when everything sleeps around you
and that velvet pain falls against your chest
hardplush echoes
of an emptiness
your heart can't contain
dont cry
dont bleed
dont make a sound
just remember
so i don't have to
forget...
unsent letter #1
a loss for words
i never realized
that i stored all
my unwritten poems
inside that heartshapedbox
until you left with it
and i couldn't
speak
blackdye inkbath
to disguise your
wherabouts
everylivingthing
has its escape route
planned
right into its
dna
so then you've disappeared
but i could always feel
your twisting tides
this oceangirl
never feared the breaking
waves the crashing sound
i was born on a beach
and baptized in saltwater
i dreamed your island
between my childfingers
the way some girls might
play with a golden ball
a little too close
to the well
do you think of sand
as time
slipping through cracks
in holy hands?
i think of a cradle of crumbling
stone
that i sink down into
as you press me into
the shape of a star
i think of moonpull
and the times
you don't want to be
touched
fingers sliding into
a customclinging velvetglove
rockingsailboatsundayafternoonlove
myths and memories tempting gravity
from above
i borrowed a book
and bought two more
stole the last
and devoured all four
traded my body for words
like a dictionarywhore
i still breathe poetry
in and out
but i never write anymore...
unsent letter #1
a loss for words
i never realized
that i stored all
my unwritten poems
inside that heartshapedbox
until you left with it
and i couldn't
speak
blackdye inkbath
to disguise your
wherabouts
everylivingthing
has its escape route
planned
right into its
dna
so then you've disappeared
but i could always feel
your twisting tides
this oceangirl
never feared the breaking
waves the crashing sound
i was born on a beach
and baptized in saltwater
i dreamed your island
between my childfingers
the way some girls might
play with a golden ball
a little too close
to the well
do you think of sand
as time
slipping through cracks
in holy hands?
i think of a cradle of crumbling
stone
that i sink down into
as you press me into
the shape of a star
i think of moonpull
and the times
you don't want to be
touched
fingers sliding into
a customclinging velvetglove
rockingsailboatsundayafternoonlove
myths and memories tempting gravity
from above
i borrowed a book
and bought two more
stole the last
and devoured all four
traded my body for words
like a dictionarywhore
i still breathe poetry
in and out
but i never write anymore...
